Day 51

The return of the elephant. I can feel it becoming easier and easier the more I do these :)

I am starting to think that I may be ready to move on to the next stage and fully render them. Gonna do just a few more though, I think I want to try using this block-in technique for a portrait as well. I can't believe I have never done this before, it's so much simpler to tackle on color issues beforehand. Being a self-taught artist is a lot trickier than it may seem.

Also caught myself being scared of starting another one for some reason. A blank canvas can be so scary at times. BUT... I am also starting to think that it might be a good idea to switch it up a bit. It can't be good to only do studies.

Also had to confront for how long I have been standing still artwise while my peers at the time have moved on, since I didn't do any art for like 3 years before starting this sketchbook. I know that I shouldn't feel guilty about it and it's not like I didn't grow a lot as a person in those years, but it still stings a bit.

I've also been asking myself if I have truly been improving in the last few weeks. Have I? When I look at my work of the past few weeks I can definitely say that I learned a lot of new tools, theories, pushed my boundaries and scraped off the rust. How come these self-critical questions still pop up? I think my impatience is starting to creep up again.

I do feel pretty good at the end of the day though. Just venting for a bit and I want this blog to be an honest portrayal of my art journey, despite it lacking a few of the most important beginning years.