Day 33

For some reason, I am quite unproductive when I am working on an illustration compared to when I am in my study mode and chugging out studies left and right.

I think it has something to do with fear of failure, which is a bad thing to have as I know that it stands in the way of progress... But how do you fix it? Maybe talking about it like this helps...

What if it failed? I consider my first (this is my second one) illustration a failure in terms of the end result, but not in the learning experience. Why can't I look at this illustration the same way? Maybe I don't want to face that I still have a long way to go and I am feeling... impatient?

But that can't be the only reason. I think I am less productive because I know how difficult an illustration to me is as well. I am either running away from difficulty, or the difficulty requires a lot of rest time. Never been strong outside of my comfort zone. I will keep pushing through because I want to believe in the idea that it will become easier in the future, even if it takes weeks.

Mostly worked on the sky and rendered bits and pieces of the monster. Thinking of handling the exposed steel of the concrete floors next.

Had some troubles sleeping, so I worked on it a bit longer and oh man. What a difference~! Lightning is key.